Back in the real world

charukesi March 29th, 2007

So I am back in Bombay - after close to four weeks of being away in a world that was unreal, to say the very least. The doctors released me earlier than expected on account of my exemplary good behavior - and if you believe that, you will believe anything. I thought of the first day at the hospital when I was talking to the chief doctor there - I was telling her about all the other treatment systems I had tried earlier - allopathy - even surgery, accupressure, acupuncture - a few dozen needles stuck all over the body already in pain, ayurveda, Siddha, homeopathy - sometimes a combination of some of these… yoga… reiki and pranic healing. Healing with crystal and color and just prayer - the works. At some point during my “speech” I seemed to have stepped back a few paces - I listened to myself as an outsider. Have I really tried all that?

I thought about the motor-mouths who write off such systems of treatment as nonsense - think about it, it is not ignorance that leads people to try such things. It is desperation. Listening to myself, I was almost able to understand why quacks flourish all over the country… all over the world? Anything - anything to feel better.

Pain is a very very lonely place to be. I dread the questions and pearls of advice now as much as I used to dread them earlier… but you look so normal (oh, I am sorry, I just removed my pain-o-meter before you came in)… how are you feeling now (I am feeling terribly anxious and hopeless but you are never going to understand that because you see me smile now - and all the time)… you must learn to live with the pain (absolutely, I have just signed up for the course)…

Only my husband and parents, rock solid in their support. Waiting, with me, to see how this treatment works out… after continued rest and medication for a few months. I am hopeful - all those bottles of oil, the medicines, the care, the rest, the prayers….

7 Responses to “Back in the real world”

  1. # shubhangion 29 Mar 2007 at 14.32

    Hope you pass out of the course with flying colors !!!

  2. # radhikaon 29 Mar 2007 at 19.15

    “I am hopeful - all those bottles of oil, the medicines, the care, the rest, the prayers….”

    they will all work, just wait and watch :-)

  3. # Suraton 30 Mar 2007 at 15.23

    How are you doing now?
    I am having lumber disk extrusion for last 2 month, going to visit same place.

  4. # yson 31 Mar 2007 at 20.10

    All I can do is to send virtual hugs and real wishes!

  5. # charukesion 02 Apr 2007 at 19.22

    Shubs, thank you - need to learn some patience too while I am at it…

    radhika, :) I am hopeful too… but sometimes it is just tough to hang on. you know how it feels….

    Surat, good luck! if it is a new problem like yours, the recovery process should be much quicker.

    ys, thank you. means a lot

  6. # Sunilon 07 Apr 2007 at 00.22

    hang in there………and I hope things get better.

  7. # charukesion 10 Apr 2007 at 08.14

    Sunil, thank you! am hanging in as best as I can :)